German Energy Experiences PT3
The morning of the second day, I had decided to make a point of the fact that in ET, *everything* is really and truly, JUST AN ENERGY. That I'm not joking when I say this; that when I talk about emotional energies being simply injuries in the energy body this actually encompasses all and everything under the topic, no matter how horrendous, how old, how hard or how painful it was or still is.
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For this purpose, I chose two exercises, namely "The Deepest, Darkest Secret" and "The Oldest Burden".
EMO can be run with "content unknown".
This means that the partner, helper or practitioner need not know what the topic of the intervention or problem is; imagine this as the equivalent of someone coming to the doctor's with a big hole in their stomach, and it is not really relevant how that got to be there, or who actually took a chunk out of this person, or whether it was the person's own fault that they now have this injury and so on and so forth - what I tend to say is that, "We're dealing with these energetic injuries like you would deal with a hole in a sock. Look, there's a sock. It's got a hole in it. We mend it. End of story."
This is a very, very essential component of EMO and what that does is to take both the practitioner and the owner of the injury into this other mindspace where things are clear and logical and incredibly easy to resolve, because you just don't get involved with what it means, whether it is a karma thing, what the lessons are, whose fault it is, how horrible it all is and so on and so forth which kept people in therapy for a lifetime.
So, and to demonstrate these three components, namely:
1. No-one ever needs to know where the injury came from or "what it means" (content unknown) and the problem can be perfectly well resolved in all ways;
2. We don't need to talk *about the problem* in order to resolve the problem (clear mind space of simple structural repair work); and
3. It doesn't matter how "bad" something is or how old, it is ONLY AN ENERGY and energy can be moved with consciousness in quantum time, easily, and just for the asking.
... I chose the "Deepest, Darkest Secret".
On the Heart Healing HD album, there is a journey/process in which one gives things one doesn't need to carry any longer to the universal ocean, and the words are:
"The ocean is enormous,
and it will with gladness take all you have to give -
even your deepest, darkest secrets,
those things you thought could never be revealed,
you could not tell another or yourself,
and which pressed the breath from your lungs,
and the bright star of hope from your eyes."
(excerpt from Ocean Wood - Heart Healing HD2)
In EMO, we really do return things to the ubiquitous universal "oceans of energy" and they are indeed enormous, and carrying secrets in the energy body is one of those things I've noted which can and do cause the most horrendous disturbances; to release these is a huge, huge relief all around.
When the group came back from this exercise, they were different.
Quieter, much more thoughtful. I think what happened was that they were beginning to appreciate the depth and power of working with energy in this way; the day before we did have a lot of good fun and there, it seems to be this easy, happy little thing, but this exercise and the one to follow, "The Oldest Burden", really do show up how very structural ET is and that there is, in short, no problem at all that is too hard, too heavy or immune to this way of working. I understand that this makes one rather thoughtful as a great many ideas one might have had about healing and even about oneself and what it takes to heal or to make changes has been so very practically challenged.
For the "oldest burden" exercise I have a story which really did amaze me. The day before, one of the participants asked if they could have a word with me and they told me the following (all details have been changed for confidentiality).
This gentleman had a son who had died of AIDS some two years previously. The son had been 21 years old when this happened, and the gentleman in question, let's call him Tony, was in a process of systemic collapse. His energy system was folding in on itself; that's the best I can describe it; and the symptoms and occurrences he told me about reminded me strongly of what has been observed in "The Dying Process", a paper (on http://sidereus.org ) written by a hospice nurse to explain what happens in very regular and systemic stages when a person is in a hospice and dying. In his quest to help his son, Tony had gone, like so many, to the end of the available allopathic remedies and treatments, and then in desperation turned to the holistic and esoteric fields of human healing because there was nothing else left to do.
This is why he was at this energy therapies conference; this is why he now was sitting in a cafe with me and telling me these things, how he couldn't sleep anymore, had no energy left for his wife, his other children, his clients at work, and how he had these terrible stabbing pains in the area of his testicles which would spread all through his abdomen and were so excruciating that he was then literally on the floor, crying out in pain.
Needless to say, the doctors couldn't find "anything wrong" physically and had now referred him to a psychiatrist; he told me that he knew full well that it wasn't physical, but he had to go through the motions for his wife's sake who was of course terribly upset too and after losing the son, was terrified she was going to lose him as well. He further told me that he thought the son had died "on his behalf", that he had died for his father, in his place.
I did what I could for him in the cafe and now, back in the training, the participants are doing "The Oldest Burden" exercise and there is Tony, as I'm making the rounds, and his two practice partners, a very young lady and a nice older lady, both kinesiologists with little or no psychology experience, working on his abdominal area.
"Bloody hell," I thought, "He's really done it - he's really given them THAT for this exercise! Wow!" and so I went over to the group and asked the older lady who was the "observer" in the team at that time, "Well, how's it going?"
The lady looked up from her notepad, smiled brightly and said all cheerfully, "Oooh, that was a bit of a tricky one, but it's getting there - halfway up the stomach now, it's starting to flow!"
And I thought, "And you have NO IDEA of the severity of what that was, what that was about, and thank the Lord you didn't because if you did, you would have been - well, probably petrified would be a good word for it!"
I made a point of having a quick word with Tony in the next available break, and what he said was this: "Something unlocked today, something - unhooked and it has changed. I feel hope for the first time - oh, since long before my son died. Hope that there is some reason for being here, and hope that I can now turn this around. Do something useful so that he didn't die for nothing."
Personally I am not given to making any predictions or promises of healing; I don't even allow myself to consider that, not in my work nor with myself, but if there was any hope at all for Tony to make it to 80 years of age then I would have thought that working this directly with the energy body, resolving these things from the energy body up like we do, is about the most gentle and best bet we have at this time, and that was worth a lot to me.
Re-Defining Psychosomatic Disease
As a result of this, I also told the group when we came back from these exercises and the much needed breaks afterwards, that I would like to officially announce that I am no longer going to use the phrase or concept of psychosomatic or neurosomatic illness, but that I consider these to be simply emotions now, and that would bring those kind of "physical pains without a seemingly physical origin" right into the brief of EMO treatments.
I believe that this re-definition of psychosomatics as being simply the highest end class of emotions will not just help those who are treating these to have a much clearer idea of what they are dealing with, and HOW to deal with these, at that, but also that people who are experiencing the pain of these high end emotions can then understand THEMSELVES better and no longer need to feel that they are mad, or having some sort of aberration going on there.
This is particularly important to me. Feeling intense and disabling pain in the absence of a physical cause is thereby strictly systemic, normal and absolutely what one would expect with the highest end injuries in the energy system and how these warning signals progress if left untreated.
Size and State Of The Human Energy System
I would like to return now briefly to my observation about Tony and that his energy system was "collapsing in on itself" as well as my noting that his processes were remarkably similar, if not the same, as what had been observed by the hospice nurse in "The Dying Process".
A set of exercise which are amongst my favourites in EMO revolve around the concept as how you can turn those miserable things I've never liked, namely "affirmations", into a powerful "evocation" of that form of energy or change which is required (Zaubersprueche!).
Very simply put, if someone believes themselves to be unlovable, and they look into a mirror and say, "I am lovable", they're not doing themselves any good but instead, experience emotional pain AGAIN - because the reason they thought that they were unlovable in the first place is most likely a blockage or energetic injury somewhere in their systems and when something of the right frequency (such as an affirmation!) hits that injury, IT HURTS SOME MORE and really, doesn't do any good at all. Very rarely and entirely by accident, SOME affirmations work but the majority of them don't, or at least not until and unless some serious other work has been done somehow else; rest of the time, it causes even more pain and depression. I'd been observing this for 20 years and more and got the point where when someone said, "Affirmation" I would spit fire in response, instantly.
With EMO what you do is to say or evoke the energy form you want, for example, "I am a superb lover." Then you note where that HURTS when you say it aloud or even think it; you heal that, and then you when you say it again and those energies rush through and out clearly, you really get a sense of what it was that you were trying to evoke and you FEEL the shift, feel the difference the evocation has created with you and for you.
This group decided mostly to do animals for this exercise - shamanic energy evocation of the ESSENCE of an eagle, a tiger, an elephant, a dolphin and so forth.
This is a little unusual for this exercise; I think someone started with animals and then everyone else thought, yeah that's cool, I always wanted to evoke "the stallion within" and did the same; but I was really glad it happened because there was a very, very interesting aspect to this I became aware of after the third person said exactly the same thing.
They all reported that their sense of their energy field *expanded massively* when they tuned into being these animals.
"I decided to evoke being an eagle. I had a blockage in my throat and then found another near the top of my stomach. When that dissolved, my vision became sharper and I could feel myself expanding hugely, I had this sense of being so big and so high, so very powerful."
Or this one:
"I used, I am an elephant. I was really surprised, I always thought elephants were kind of lumbering and slow. But wow, when I had cleared a blockage in my head and neck, I felt this amazing sense of expansion, and physical power - I felt so strong and so alive!"
Now, eagles are considerably SMALLER than human beings, so why would the experience of an eagle's energy system lead a person to feel their energy field expanding?
Unless - people's energy systems are drawn in unnaturally?
Unless - and this was indeed a very frightening thought! - they are in that process of collapse that I had observed in Tony?!
Not as fast or catastrophic as in his case, but actually and practically, doing the "dying process" over a longer period of time? Might that lead to the proverbial "grey men, leading lives of quiet desperation"?
I was most intrigued by that thought and what it also did was to bring to the fore once more how IMPORTANT working with the energy system directly might be for long term health and longevity even, if you want.
It may well be so that even we who are working with the human energy systems every day are still really seriously underestimating the importance of it as the very BASIS FOR HUMAN LIFE altogether. That we still may live in the old construct entrainments where there never was such a thing as an energy system, or that playing around with that said energy system is something you do "after all else has failed", if you have nothing better to do or if you're bored at the weekend.
It is certainly a fascinating supposition and one that would behoove us all to take a good long look at; and especially in the context of what one might DO in order to reverse this slow collapse and put things to rights.
And now, to a personal highlight of this training for me - very personal and very, very important indeed.
Following Richard Bandler's failed court cases to try and claim ownership of NLP back (which he indeed had invented!) I was advised when I invented EMO to make sure that everyone I train signs a document which clearly states that they didn't invent it, and that I was not passing over the name into their ownership but just renting it out for the duration of the practitioner/trainer's license.
This is a legal document of some two pages and it has caused havoc ever since we had it during EMO trainings because people simply freak out when faced with such a thing, refuse to sign it, demand to know what every paragraph means and generally go into a cataclysm of fear, distrust and God alone knows what kinds of "psychological reversal".
Well, so here I'm doing this training and it is going so beautifully, flowing so beautifully, the whole group bonding lovingly and people really connecting with each other, and in the lunchbreak of the second day, these documents come out for the group to sign, and the usual freakouts occur on the spot.
Only this time, I'm standing there and I'm seeing this thing energetically. And what I'm seeing is the pleasant blue green flow of the ET training, and the legal documents are like a sharp, nasty black evilness with spikes coming out of it - they don't belong here.
I remember thinking this very clearly, "They don't belong here."
So, and as I indeed am the inventor and owner of EMO, I held up my hand and said to the group, "Right. That does it. I've had all I can take of this nonsense.
"These stupid legal documents do NOT belong into one of my trainings. They are energetically incompatible and are producing a disturbance in the flow that is entirely unnecessary.
"Either I believe in energy, or I don't.
"I cannot stand here and tell you people about EMO and energy and the Even Flow, and then hand out this energetic shrapnel, not for one moment longer.
"From this day forth, we're going to do without those. I'm going to instruct The Sidereus Foundation accordingly and have all the trainers informed as soon as I'm back home tomorrow, that's the end of it, once and for all.
"So if you please, ladies and gentlemen, rip up those contracts, right now, and throw them away.
"I cannot be preaching energy, I must be living energy. I can't do anything else, and I won't."
After this impassioned outburst, the group was a little speechless at first. Then they took the contracts, ripped them up and spontaneously burst out into applause which turned into a standing ovation - LOL! A wonderful moment actually, and a conscious watershed for me.
Unlike a great many people I've met, I am LIVING what I learn and what I teach at every way. It is entirely REAL to me and energy does not stop for "the real world" with legal documents and such.
If some idiot comes along and "steals" the name (or attempts this) then I'll make something else, find an ENERGETICALLY CORRECT solution for the problem. Seriously, court cases over "ownership" of a term are for muppets and won't have anything to do with that. Other than feeling sorry for people who consider themselves so entirely resourceless that they have to steal other people's work and try and pretend it's their own. Perhaps they did an ET evocation on "I'm a mangy half starved coyotee" or such. Who can know.
But I believe in energy work absolutely and it was quite wonderful for me personally to really have to opportunity to understand this, and to make a stand for myself and in myself for energy work and my belief in it. Magical, that was, and very healing and re-aligning.
The Afternoon Exercises
So, and in the terms of the training, as I'd said, by lunchtime we were finished with the ET practitioner programme and now it was time to play a little with the new techniques, with the stuff that is basically outside the skin barrier and thereby, perceived differently.
For a basic and first introduction to working with ereas outside the physical body, I choose the Rainbow Connection, an energetic polarity/parts integration device that has simply wonderfully noticeable effects on people's physicalities, their states and their conscious awareness/thought; and as the Level 2 equivalent of the "Oldest Burden" carried inside the body, "The Shadow" exercise.
Hereby what we do is to take a "something" that exists in the energy field and of which its owner has been entirely aware for a long time, possibly their entire conscious lives, and which is functionally a major disturbance in the wider energy field, hence the name, "The Shadow". Following the usual precepts of EMO, this is then systemically explored and released and Even Flow is being brought to those ereas of the energy body which are linked into that particular wider system.
One lady I observed had a life-long problem with something that turned out to be a permission issue - it was as though there were parts in her energy system where she was not allowed to go, or know about, or have contact with. This was a most profoundly interesting experience and the lady in question was literally (and very physically!) reeling as she needed to find a whole new balance all around. When she did, I can only say that I was most impressed with the changes, indeed.
I also gave the group as a bonus and gift from me to them for all their honest attention and hard work over the two days a short overview of Project Energy, a true multi-purpose energetic alignment device for use in business, family therapy and other systems where more than one component needs to be working and function within a "group flow system". They enjoyed this quite a bit, as I did talking about this - it's one of my favourite patterns of 2003 (so far :-) and very, very magical.
I also made a quick mention of Thought Flow, and then invited the group to join me for a Heart Healing session.
This was very interesting. As you probably know, I'm a General Semanticist and also a long term NLPer and hypnotist, so as soon as I started on the words to the basic Heart Healing invocation in German I became aware that I wasn't doing this right to be speaking it TO them; what would have happened was that they would have gone away thinking that *I* was healing their hearts!
This of course leads to the totally wrong conclusions and also, "Guru disturbances" of which I am acutely aware and highly allergic to; so I stopped everything immediately and explained that the core, very deepest core of what I do is to bring people online so they get to step into THEIR OWN HEALING POWERS and use those to grow stronger from within THEMSELVES, rather than leaving this to another outside of themselves.
So, instead, what I did was to speak a single line, and then having the group repeat the single line in the HH posture (see Heart Healing on http://EmoTrance.com ), much like you would do on an oath or pledge of allegiance. That gave me the time to phrase it right and to make sure that the right ENERGY AND INTENTION was present.
I don't remember the exact words and of course, they were in German, but it went something like this.
These are MY healing hands.
(Group repeats gestures and words - These are MY healing hands.)
I place MY OWN healing hands on MY OWN dear heart.
With all my love, it is my full intention
to make right what once went wrong,
to make whole what once was broken,
with all my love and all my power,
I nourish and awaken
my dear beloved heart.
That was absolutely amazing, absolutely magical as the group spoke these words and the energy in the room was just totally wonderful, is all I can say. Holy, even, and in this format it was right - all these people there and each was an individual, adding their own individuality to the time and place, and knew they were.
I was most satisfied with this and so, we finished up with a Q&A session, and the training was indeed, complete.
Thoughts and Further Developments
Personally, I had not actually conducted an ET training since the first one in Kensington last year and had had no plans whatsoever to ever do that again - this was and is the reason I only do a limited amount of trainer's trainings once in a while, so that I don't have to go over the basics over and over again and keep my time free for going forward.
I was very stressed at the inaugural Kensington training for various reasons and don't actually remember much at all of what went on there; I do know there was a participant who wanted their money back half way through the first day because I was "too old and ugly" which rather cemented my views that the general public is best avoided at all cost and the only reason I chose to do this German training was in order to show some solidarity to the publishing company which was sponsoring the conference and to thank them for having faith in this new system.
However, it turned out to be one of the most extraordinary experiences of my training career and one could say, reconciled me with the whole EMO system in a big way.
It is a superb system from every angle, and really, I should have done much, much more to publicise it and to make sure that folk would know about it. It is gentle and a whole new experience for practitioners and therapists alike, and allows one to tackle the very worst disturbances swiftly and with confidence, even if one has no training in existing therapy forms at all. It fits like a glove with just about every imaginable form of therapy and counselling, from kinesiology to massage and psychology and can be as easy as saying a few words; as the therapist, you can't go wrong and you learn stacks about people as you're paying attention to each client's unfoldments in total safety because the client is totally in control all the way through.
For clients, it is finally a way to deal with things one has been afraid of and suffering from for such a long time; things one might have thought could never possibly be resolved, or would have to hurt as much again if one was to turn one's attention there; and for people like me who have been severely abused the idea of retaining full control over the processes yet to be supported by another in this totally respectful and gentle manner is nothing short of a Godsent. I can't just lie there and let people prod my energy system to their heart's content, all of me goes simply on flat out red alert and so I have avoided this scenario all my life. With this way of working, I'm in control and can call halt to things if I'm getting scared and I get not only to decide exactly what we're working on and in which order, but also the ONLY feedback mechanism are MY feelings and experiences and what *I* say - no-one is telling me any more what's wrong with me, nor how THEY are going to put this right by a quick prod here and a quick prod there.
Further, for the very worst stuff I don't have to tell anyone at all what it was and where it came from and put myself back through the mill yet again, but can simply point and say where it hurts - and *I* am the one whose attention in the end, moves and restores these energy blockages, gives permission and the instruction for healing to be executed, it is all *my* choice, *my* doing.
Lastly, as I am doing this, the very fact that my various bizarre emotions, thoughts and behaviours are simply structural and systemic responses to a deeply disturbed and injured energy body beneath, and NOT signs of madness, that God doesn't love me or that I've deserved any of this is simply a cooling rain to a fire of pain which has smouldered for 40 years or more.
Those are my own responses to EMO exercises when I take part in person.
Those types of responses are mirrored by the other participants and indeed, in this case so very powerfully so that I have to conclude it is not only me who finds this way of working with old problems incredibly relieving from both angles - that of the practitioner, and that of the therapist. I actually had *wanted* to hug some of the participants, and I don't touch nor hug unless the cavalry is standing by and I've basically given birth myself to the person in question! Others there said that their practice partners "came to life before their eyes", that they felt the others in the room "became so much more real" and some remarked that they had "never before felt so connected to a client" as they had done during these exercises.
THAT is perhaps the most truly amazing and profound effect of this whole deal and where as far as I am concerned, the greatest hope for further healing and resolution resides for those amongst us who, like myself, have lost it somewhere with the human race, have crept off in pain and defeat to hide behind their shields just so they might survive another day without going completely insane and have remained there, disconnected, lonely and slowly "starving for love amidst the oceans of energy".
What I also did see and experience so profoundly that I think I've finally learned is that working with the energy body in this way and entirely honouring the PHYSIOLOGICAL responses of the body is perhaps the master key to a true re-connection of consciousness, energy body and physicality in the end.
I've had a very brief personal experience of what happens when that happens, when all of you comes into sync just for a flash of a moment - it is a sense of lucidity and presence, of connection and incredible clarity of mind which encompasses all that IS indeed just like an enlightenment state, an epiphany, a numinous experience. I had this brief experience during this training, and you could say that it has re-set my goal posts as to what it is that I'm trying to achieve, what I'm actually after, and what can be done if we get this right.
This has also re-set my ideas as to what has to be done next with EMO, and where it needs to go.
I'm going to presenting these new directions in a one off training in November 2003 (for details please see http://emotrance.com ); before, I thought I knew where we were going - the wider energy body, energetic realities, putting things right on those wider levels and in those planes, and of course the Triad system of the HEROS.
That is still perfectly correct and needs to be done, but there has emerged another aspect most strongly, and that would be the body itself, and the body/energy body injuries on all these levels and layers which have not been treated correctly and never been dealt with correctly.
What I saw and experienced for myself in Germany was that we need to bring the physicality directly into this game, combining physical stimulation and touch with the basic EMO system and thereby working with *physicality AND the energy system* at the same time. This is a very long story and those who would like to find out more about the physical EMO connections and exercises will be able to find articles on this later on on http://EmoTrance.com and most likely, I will be writing interim reports about this extraordinary topic for http://starfields-group.com
In the meantime, I am going to conclude this series of articles on the "German Energy Experiences" with saying that I am most deeply grateful to have been given the opportunity to work with a system which is custom made for people like myself; that however this came to be, it is truly the most extraordinary gift and it deserves my attention.
Thank you for listening and have a gentle day and night,
Creator, The EMO System
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