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Robert Gene Smith has posted a YouTube video:
When her boys were born 1995 and 1997, Phyllis remembers something she has never said out loud to anyone. With the year 2000 approaching and the childhood belief that the world would end still running deep inside her, she remembers thinking with quiet certainty... I will only get to know my children until they are five and three. She never told her parents. She never told her husband. She never told a single person. And when I asked her why, she knew the answer immediately. Because she was afraid that if she said it out loud, someone would tell her it was true. That is what deeply installed religious fear does. It doesn't just plant the belief. It seals it. It makes disclosure feel more dangerous than silence. So the belief stays untouched, quietly shaping every decision, every relationship, every boundary for decades. And sitting right there in that conversation, Crystal recognized it immediately in herself. Her father Protestant. Her mother Catholic. A church that wouldn't accept her mom. Parents who had to get married outside of both of their traditions to be together at all. A lifetime of that particular feeling, of not quite belonging. Of having to earn your place. Of keeping yourself small because small feels safer than seen. Want to please. Do the best you can. Don't rock the boat. Don't get punished. I looked at both of them and named it... A lot of women. And maybe men too. Have this exact pattern. Most of them have never said it out loud. Most of them don't know it's running everything. And most of them have spent years, decades managing the effects of it without ever touching the root. This is Part 12 of Phyllis's story. And it is also, if you are honest with yourself, possibly yours too. Phyllis's journey continues. Stay with it. And if you have been carrying something like this quietly, something you have never said out loud because you are afraid of what the answer might be, my Root Cause Reset workshop begins April 5th. Four live Sundays. This is where that silence finally gets addressed at the root. You have been carrying this long enough.
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